first day with the varsity belly dancers...

well, well, well... that was interesting and fun!

i remember when, as a sophomore, i made the pom squad. i was elated, even though i was an alternate. i was an alternate to suzi simons. i was her alternate the whole time i was in high school from class officer to the pom squad.

pretty much, that's been the status quo my whole life. not quite good enough to take front and center. always the girl ready to go on if you get the flu. but, no one ever gets the flu.

hey, i'm not bitter... it took a lot of the pressure off, and i've learned to be comfortable here. however, it isn't quite the same and i know it. never quite good enough...

"decide you want something more than you are afraid of it." bill cosby

things have changed. now, i'm in a dance class with women i've had as teachers, the women i've admired in shows... and it's a little unfamiliar, but in a pleasant and welcoming way.

after the first class, i have a mental list of strengths and challenges--semester goals, if you will. i'll sit down soon and compare those notes with my teacher. the demeanor is a little different--a little more serious, but not too.

i like it here. i feel my own style is here, waiting for me. it was just waiting for me to leave the wings and want something more than to be an alternate.