back at the lab...

one test came back with the all clear--one of the scary ones. that's a relief.

now, we face round two.

had a long heart to heart with my doc today. i highly recommend it. sometimes you know things aren't right, or maybe there is something in your closet that may shed some light.

you simply never know and being honest and forthright can only be helpful.

hiding is not helpful.

hiding is bad.

hiding is what i want to do.

i want to be 26 forever.

i wish i was never afraid.

*sigh*

(i'm no one special. we all have to deal with our health, and frankly, i've gotten off damn lucky for forty-two years. let me be clear--i'm NOT complaining.)

i'm not qualified to evaluate and diagnose myself, but i am a research whore. i read a lot and now that PCOS and other little snags are in my life, i REALLY pay attention. so, when things are amiss, i don't just hope it will go away.

it's a little like trying to make the perfect mac n cheese. you add a little more cheese, a little less milk... or maybe not. maybe you need some butter.

and, just when you think you have the perfect recipe, you're favorite noodle maker goes out of business.

so, you end up back at the lab...