so i'm a cat lady. i'd have a gagillion if i could. but, i've never had a sick animal that needed daily attention.
i surprised myself with the thoughts i had while waiting for the vet to get back with test results. what i was willing to do for this animal and how important he was to me?
was i willing to give him insulin everyday? needles are an unbelievable issue for me. what if he was so sick, i couldn't make him better? when did i really notice that he was loosing too much weight? what would it be like not to have his constant annoying mewing? what if i really couldn't afford to help him? or could i?
only an animal... not really.
i've watched friends spend lots of money on an ill animal. i've watched people dote and focus and maybe take the whole thing dangerously close to what i thought was over-the-top.
but, they are friends, companions, family. i didn't realize how much of my every day this little animal was until now. we know each others moods and habits. he greets me and relies on me. he wakes me in the morning and nudges my cheek before we curl up and fall asleep.
luckily, it's a thyroid issue with a couple pills a day. but, that visit to the vet was a little reality check.
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